We seem to compulsively seek to relieve an inherent distress of not having what we set out to get. Our decision making seems fueled at times by this need to relieve distress rather than the intrinsic value of what we are seeking. When I have a fear of not getting stuff and this is linked to insecurity, as mentioned in the Big Book, it is usually in relation to my pocket book, financial insecurity, personal relationships, self esteem etc. I have found over the last decade in recovery that when I turn my Will over to the care of the God of my understanding that I am restored to sanity and my thoughts are sound, they are on a higher plane as the Big Book tells me. We can not rely on our thoughts and feelings or, in other words, our Self Will. Our self will has become impaired and is no longer in the service of our successful survival. I have seen in myself how fear and shame seem to drive most of my maladaptive behaviour. As Bill Wilson noted, we seem to get distressed when we don’t get what we want or feel people or trying to take away what we have.

What are the Bedevilments in the big book?

selfish, dishonest, self-seeking and frightened… remorse, depression and inferiority… misery, bad repute, and hopelessness.” [All quotes from Alcoholics Anonymous.] This is quite a list.

Whether you seek to engage in formal prayer, informal mental conversations, or merely by doing good and putting positive energy into the universe, there is no right or wrong way to pray to your higher power. Once you open up to this idea and implement that spiritual connection, you will experience your long-awaited spiritual awakening, Sober House the answer to that pesky spiritual malady we suffer from as alcoholics. When the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous was written and published in 1939, the times and language of those times was incredibly different than modern times. This is one of the reasons that Big Book study groups have become so popular among recovering alcoholics.

When the spiritual malady is overcome we straighten out mentally and physically?

Frequently, individuals who struggle with alcohol addiction are also experiencing a mental health issue like an anxiety disorder or a depressive disorder. Abusing alcohol is a form of self-medicating that, at first and superficially, seems to help. However, it quickly becomes apparent that doing so is only masking the underlying issues. Similarly, those who struggle with alcohol addiction are more susceptible to developing a mental health issue.

How do I strengthen my pes anserinus?

  1. Lie on your back with your affected knee straight. Your good knee should be bent.
  2. Bend your affected knee by sliding your heel across the floor and toward your buttock until you feel a gentle stretch in your knee.
  3. Hold for about 6 seconds, and then slowly straighten your knee.
  4. Repeat 8 to 12 times.

Hopefully the ideas included in this short writing show that there are many ways to approach these topics. I struggled with this myself in the early days of my recovery. It was one more thing that my disease used to separate me from other folks in the rooms of recovery, another way to feel unique. Imagine the worst feeling you have ever had, and then add in the fact that in that moment you also felt utterly alone in the universe, and you have the general feeling of a spiritual malady. Convicted of our new way of life, we dove headlong into meetings, moral inventories, sponsorship, and service, overlooking the quiet pursuit of conscious contact with our creator.

There is a map of Emotional Responding Tattooed on my Heart.

There is a self-awareness in the author that has developed over time. This isn’t complicated stuff, really, but people need to have an inner motivation to achieve the lasting peace described in each step. I just finished reading Ren Koi’s book, The Spiritual Malady, which was certainly published at an opportune time. With many communities in lockdown, and more people describing feelings of uncertainty, anxiety, depression, and despair than ever before, the calm, down-to-earth tone of this book makes it the perfect read to put things into perspective.

Apart from dissecting the Big Book so as to have a firmer grasp on the 12 Steps and program and in general, it also is designed to help us decipher the intricate language and wording used from a different time period. Old timers and recovering people with more experience can explain in layman’s terms just what the author Bill W. Was trying to relay in a far more easily what is a spiritual malady digestible fashion. So overall, we truly have no real need for the idea of alcoholism as a “disease” in order to learn and grow along spiritual lines. And, as the BB says, once the spritual malady is overcome, we straighten out physically and mentally. But it really was, for me, only when I’d had the phychic change that I fully understood what that was about.

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